Getting a Tattoo

Iv wanted a tattoo for quite a few years now, but I haven't got one because I know how my mind changes all the time as I go through different phases of my life. I’m 30 now and have had an idea in my head about a tattoo that I’m certain about for a few years now, but Iv been holding off as I thought i didn’t want a tattoo in any of my wedding photos. Now I have my dress, I’m starting to go back on my thought because the tattoo I want would look awesome with my dress!

Iv only got around 5months till my wedding so I’m still procrastinating and debating what I should do. On one hand it would look awesome, I know what I want, who I want to do it and where, it would also mean something but only to me and not be connected to anyone or any particular thing, it would be more related to a time in my life. I’m just so excited when I think about it. On the other hand, it means bearing where i would be tattooed, my thigh. My wedding dress can be worn slightly see through and so would expose the tattoo. The dress in itself is quite different and kind of edgy if worn like that, but to top it off with a fresh tattoo that my family or partners family have never seen before may just be a bit of a shock (although I think it would be quite a funny reaction) I also think I have one life and I want to experience as much as I can, and this is kind of on my bucket list, I said I would get one when I turned 30!

Doing things like this is not a light decision for me and something that I take very seriously, I am happy with my body and although I don't like to bare it all, I don't want to end up with something I'll feel I need to cover up. I kind of feel like, the tattoo would be so me and I want to be me and not let the thought of what other people may think stop me from doing something. When I seriously think about it though I start to think about the permanence of it and how I may come to hate parts of it or all of it, as I'm a perfectionist and I always notice detail, if there is even something slightly off about it then I know I'll hate it. The other thing holding me back is that it will also cost a lot because I have a large tattoo in mind, all my spare cash from Christmas and Birthday would go on it, meaning all other plans for that money would have to wait (Iv saved this money as it now seems so precious as we are being so strict with our joint money) So ultimately I’m in this dilemma, I think I may go as far as enquiring if it’s actually all possible and affordable, and then maybe just go for it! It's crunch time and I will have to decide what to do, right now I'm so unsure and feeling 50/50 so I'll let you know what happens!

Sorry for this rambly confused post but this is my state of mind at the moment, what a lovely problem to have! Am I way overthinking this or should I just shut up and do it?! Anyway, it's nice to get my thoughts down.